=====Fly Away=====

2005-05-05T13:12:00.000-07:00

Calling someone stupid doesnt make you clever,
Calling someone ugly doesnt make you prettier,
Calling someone fake doesnt mae u true either,
And calling someone a backstabber, boot-licker, gossiper doesnt make you any better.
Complaining that u have no one to trust only shows that u are too scared to trust others because u know that deep inside u r not one to trust and u think that the whole world is like you.
Complaining that you have no true frens only shows that u are so horrible no one wants to be true frens with you.
Sometimes, the fault doesnt lies with the others, but with you.

2005-04-27T15:10:00.000-07:00

The weather is getting hotter by every minute!! Oh my gawd..
Anyway, today, during class, i read this article on other teenagers view on blogs. yes, one of them said that since blogs are mostly written in singlish, we are not going to improve our english by blogging. Therefore, from now onwards, i am going to write my blog in 'perfect' english.
Wadeva.
I am so lame man.cant stand it anymore. my english so perfect LOR. siao. the heat is making me become crazy!! phew..air con..
wait. the weather is like so hot, hottest season in singapore now and OUR AIR CON IS NOT WORKING!! What is going inside ms ek's or general office's staff's head??? wait and wait and wait..wait forever lar!
then, today there was this poetry slam..lol. Norine's group won!!! Expected.. haixx.when is mx coming back? i thot u say very fast liao?nvm, i wait.
HOT.

2005-04-26T14:05:00.000-07:00

i have decided. my new crush is Ice and Air-con( that is cold and not like the one in 2J).

2005-04-26T13:59:00.000-07:00

One word todescribe todae...HOT it is so damn hot lor..then todae go home early rite.. nobody accompany me to go out to eat..boohoo..one got throat infection the other go home eat..then the last one see the other two dun want to go/cannot go oso dun feel like going. imean look, the weather is so damn hot i actuallie i oso no mood to go anywhere except places with air con and very near so dun nid to walk in the sun..lol.

198 was practically empty when i boarded the bus..haix..so i went to the nearby Mac to buy lunch..HOT..the weather, the burger, the fries and chilli sauce. -_- okok.. the come home on the air con still damn hot man!..feel like taking off my clothes..bian4 tai4..haix..todae compo exam i broke record..both english and chinese i didnt wrote narrative.hey! i always chose narrative or personal recount de lor..then still keep telling myself i SURELY wont wrtie exposition or news-read-after-feeling (translate it urself lar) die lor..Emil!! why must u be so chim..haix..pro lor.
so lonely.im still lonely. i have nobody.on my own-oh.'meng xia's blog to listen to this cute cute song..will cool down the weather and cheer u up!

2005-04-25T15:44:00.000-07:00

Just came back from sch..
Wad kind of weather is this!! Argh!! So damn hot man!
Somemore class air-con is so hot..lol.
todae went to sch chao ealry cuz dad went oversea to work, had to take airplane then just drop me off on the way to the airport..so i woke up much i earlier than i usually do lor! haix..then classroom so empty then i nth to do loR.. but in the morning the air con still quite cooling lar until..mid-day!! Argh!! so hot until Mr chng couldnt teach and all of us couldnt concentrate nor understand. Chng even forget how to solve a sum( but managed it in the end lar).phew..

Now at home in the studyroom. With air-con..savouring down a melon ice-cream..paradise..compared to the oven outside..
Later mx coming over for sleepover worx!!!! For the whole of this week lar.. Soo excited!! Mx, are u excited too?! LOL.. Looking forward towards tonite wor!
btw..got a damn lot of hw lor..haix..gtg..later then update you ...byee

2005-04-24T20:02:00.000-07:00

Todae chao tiring man..lau..
Moring woke up damn early ( not exactly lar) ..LOL.. then went for that art class.. Nothing much. First time painting water reflection though..suck at it lar.. thet teacher sae must put LOADS of water.. so i put lor.. then too watery until the paint all dissolve in the water.. translucent, no shud be transparent..siao. then see all the others so pro.. somemore act pro in front of ME!! ( yun to yun: aiyo, you jealous sae lar..dun jia jia) okay..im jealous kaes.. But i oni learn for one month lor!! nvm. jia you..

the went for swimming. didnt do much. just swim and swim and swim.. until.. me and mx got tired of swimming. D-i-a-o-x.. then went to buy Kfc for dinner cuz whole family having dinner outside but i wan to walk home with mx mar.. see..i so wei3 da4..sacrifice myself.LOL. lame lar! mx is MAD!!! walk oso cannot walk properly, keep on leaning on me.. mx g o n die lar..lol..i noe u miss D*n*el, but u dunt have to turn lesbian rite..wat toking me..Anyway.. looking forwards to tml cuz frm tml nite onwards mx wud be staying at my house worx! are u excited too? yeah.lol. for one whole week man!
but..sob sob..i lost my science test revision wksht!! die lor..tml get scolded..haix..hopely khang in gd mood..gtg liao..byee.
LOTS OF LOVE

2005-04-24T15:36:00.000-07:00

somethings we cannot control..when it have to go..u cannot hold..
somethings u cant prevent..when it comes..you have to let go..
all we can do..is to treasure them..treasure the memories..and lead a happy life.

Mx, Jia youz! Dunt be sad.. ur grandma wunt be happy if she see u sad worx ( the usual phrase )..try to comfort ur mum lar..
And happy staying at my house for 1 WHOLE WEEK!!

2005-04-23T13:24:00.000-07:00

Those who are out to hurt others have inner fear in themselves so that's why they hurt you...Dont cry...

Forgive and forget

Dun care

Stay calm.Stay Cool.

Since we are no longer frens, ignore her rantings. Life must go on.

Be Strong. Love yourself.

Grow up. Be mature.
*******
But nomatter how strong i am. how cheerful i can be..i get hurt too its all my fault.
if i wasnt frens with you in the first place, we wouldnt break up and you would come to my blog to hurt me agan and again.zi4 zuo4 zi4 shou4

2005-04-23T11:05:00.000-07:00

I dont know whether I ll post this a not but I shud really pour it out todae..i really dunno wad to sae..I dunt know how to start it either..for some reason.. I feel i shudnt let u all noe so much

Great..i still haven start on wad I shud sae..maybe I shudnt mention abt it..but hb said I cant keep things bottled in me forever..I must agree with her..in fact.

In sch, the moment I step into class..an expressionless face. Sometimes..i will be smiling..laughing together with Cheyenne..theo..wendy.. Sometimes I will have a bu4 shuang3 face..either no expression or happy or angry..perhaps sleepy face in the morning.. when I am sad..i just give a sian face that has sad written over it..Seldom did I cry in school

If you ask close friends of mine in primary school..I cried very often. A cry baby. But I cry for silly things.. my frens quarrel with me..the teacher changed my seat away frm my frens..my frens betrayed or mistook me.. I cry so often.. But, I smile very often too.. when I reached sch, I wud smile at my frens like I had nvr smile b4.. few returned me a puzzled look.. but at that time I did not understand why they did that to me.. i was childish..a smile can make another person’s day happy..full of hope.. That was how I felt in the past. Shen even once asked me something like: why u always smiling..
Then I replied sth like: cuz whenever I see u I feel like smiling, same goes to zheng zheng and cassie. I dunt know if she ever rmbs it but I wud.. But now..

There’s nth for me to smile abt, I often sae to myself. Nothing. I dunt know how to phrase it. pardon me. I started found life meaningless.. Dreadful. dry.. bland .. Actually I rather wish that I didn’t grow up.. didn’t have to think so much..

Starting of crap.
Today I was waiting at the void deck waiting for my brother’s school bus and fetch him home.. Sitting near me was a young Indian boy and a stray cat. When the boy saw the cat, he stroked its back and the cat purred contently, weaving around his skinny legs. Then, all of a sudden, the boy took the cat and hug it in his arms. It was a small incident but to me, its touching. Often do we not see adults telling their child not to touch or go near stray cats as they might scratch or have germs. Usually it’s the modern and rich families who say that to their kids. But the skinny Indian boy.. he didn’t care.. he loved the cat.. pure love ..so simple it touched me. However, not many of us see that. We just think yuck, how dirty that boy is. But he is kind.

Sometimes, even when I look at the morning sky or evening sky, I will get touched. The sky is so open ..not hiding anything away frm us. It opened its arms, willing to accept any of us. Yet it is so simple. Blue, occasionally covered by some passing clouds. Also, the colors of the sky blend so well with one another it looks like they were bonded to one another. Sometimes, I wish I am the sky. The carefree and happy-go-lucky sky. But Im a cloud..LOL.. a small piece of cloud often unnoticed by ppl.. I blend into the surrounding, with me without me doesnt make any difference.
Often people say that thea cloud could touch the sky. You are wrong. No matter how high the cloud may go, it can never ever touch the sky. They were so near yet so far. The sky seemed to be within their reach by when they reach out their hand, they could not grab it or even touch it. Every time a cloud falls to the earth, it would tell itself to fly higher the next time but it still couldnt reach the sky. However, a cloud would never give up hope. It dreamed that one day, it would finally reach the sky even if it is merely a dream.End of crap.

In the dark when everyone is sound asleep, ( when you read this dun post any comments.. Im saying for the sake of not bottliing everyting up) I wud cry silently to myself. Shen Yiyin, dun think u noe everything abt me. You dunt. When I cry, only one quarter of the time I wud find you. Otherwise, I keep it to myself. Whatever things I met in the day, hurt or not, I keep it to the night. I think a lot. About fake and true ppl which are getting lesser. But, wad is a true person, nobody noes. I myself is not true.. nobody. But a cloud nvr give up hope, I tried my best to be as real as possible. I dun t like the feeling that others are acting nice in front of me. So I thought nobody likes it too. I started to becum wad I am today. I write my feeling all over my face, except when I am sad, I dunt cry. I wanted to be strong. I dunt wan to be like in pri sch, cuz I know, when I cry now, Shen, Zheng and Cassie wunt be by my side. I missed them, really. It wasnt until this yr that I finally opened up. I accepted dawn Theo chey and wendy into my life. Last year, I treated them like normal classmates. I hated them, for they had nvr treated me like a fren b4.I hated everything abt RVHS, even all the ppl inside. I hate them for always acting cool and stuff.but I had to smile to them. when they nid me they find me. When they dunt, they leave me. That was how I felt. Maybe because I was still on the thought that my only frens are Shen, Zheng and Cassie.

Once Shen told me when u are too strong, nobody pities you, no guy will come and help u up when u fall down. But I didnt care. I didnt need their help. Soon, I had the habit of crying to myself at night. For any reason or no reason, I cry. Why? I , myself, dont know the answer either.

Then one day, I felt that Shen was ignoring me for the boys, I get angry with her but she didnt care. She blocked me. I was hurt. Are guys really more important than frens who accompanied you through all those rainy days? Maybe to her. I broke up with her. Shen if you say I am sacra to everything I hate, I learn it from you. I have always admire you straightforwardness, the way you scold ppl without caring if you wud get hated, if you wud be the one losing in the end. You did wad u think was rite. You stood up for me. You encouraged me on whenever I feel like committing suicide..lol.. you ensured me wasn’t the ugliest in the world even though I know you were just comforting me. But when that someone who hates me said that he/she pitied I have no friends, u agreed.. what doesnt that means? You left me. I accept the fact. Maybe I changed. Maybe you did too. But no matter wad, thanks for everything.

I have grown stronger, yet I could no longer smile like I used to. I forced myself to smile sometimes. Now, I am tired. The reason I dont tok to guys, very simple. I found that there was no need. I dont need so many frens who are not close. I prefer frens to be close even though there might not be many. Oso, guys wudnt wan to tok to me. I am so common and I dont intend to be cute, whats more, there are plenty of pretty girls in our class so I think I shud concentrate on my frens instead of guys. Someone once broke up with her best fren cus her fren was hanging out with the guys more than often.(Theo..i will never mention u in my blog liao, happie?) I broke up with Shen because she was neglecting me for the guys she merely knows. If any guy could replace our friendships because he is shuai or sweet or nice to you, I think I wud admit defeat.

Actuallie nobody thoroughly understands me, maybe only meng xia, my god sis. When I am with my classmates, everyone of you, I felt like okay, frens..very normal frens. Frens for being there to do project stuff, to show some class spirit. But when mx is around, I feel I found my other self. To describe my feeling towards her, I wud use love. I am not lesbian or wad.. really.. If I am a lesbian, how in the first place wud I even crush a guy? My love for her is sister love. But to shen in the past I love her too. In fact, all four of my closest frens, shen zheng cass meng xia, I wud use love to describe my liking to them. Its like when I am with the class, I wud think of ways to get my god sis to come along, so that with her by my side, I feel safe, free. I think most of you have seen her b4, the tanned gurl with small yet cute eyes.yet, mx doesn’t noes I cry very often at night. I think I better stop right here.. there are too many things to write..too many thoughts. I cant bear to have them coming back and being typed out one by one. I know too many things, too many secret that are not supposed to be known by me. I cant tell you..ok..im mad....

2005-04-17T20:23:00.000-07:00

ARGHHH..why the song could not be heard!!!!! why!!!! okay cool down girl...

anywae..just now went swimming with godsis mx..tok tok tok..then tok abt me not toking to guys and stuf...plss lor..i seriousl dun like tokin to guyss...its like so despo liddat...tok to them for wad..to socialise..plss lor.. ihate socialising..so stupid term...socialiising is just being FAKE..u get wad i mean..nvm..maybe i shud speak more to guys but hor...speak to them for wad... i got enough good frens liao lor..besides..they oso got enough frens liao..so ..i noe i very cynical or wadeva but..its true..thnx..

2005-04-17T13:58:00.000-07:00

Yay...todae went for art class....then at first i ap the teacher lar.. cuz i cant stand the ppl there lor..all so erk hem..unfriendly..
budden after a while hor..the teacher came to see and teach lar.then show me how to paint the sky with many colors..help me abit..must let thewater clour flow...turn the drawing blah blah then still must SHAKE it...lol then he show the whole class and say very nice...another teacher oso commented that its very nice...FINALLY..he praised me..first time in the month since i join the class...
actually hor..the sky not entirely painted by me lor..so cannot sae i very happy lar.haixx..lol
YAY later go swimming..stil dun dare to dive standing up..maybe todae will try it..but hor everytime i dive rite, the goggles will getinwater then i cannot see...the other dae rite..when i cant see i just swim BLINDly then swim wrong direction...very malu lor..other peeps swim horizontal i swim vertical..then instruction had to practically pull be back..lol...

Theo's blog very nice leh..i dunno why i still cant change my template!!!

2005-04-15T21:09:00.000-07:00

i think i shud really change my attitude...haixx...always feel that other ppl are fake and jia..maybe i shud accept the fact that being too straightforward isn't a nice thing..i guess have change that habit....even if i dun like that person..i can't i dun like him/her...have to try and accept him/her...Sry..if i have hurt anyone of you with my stupid ignorant and stubborn words..im too insensitive...but..is better than i hate you behind you and pretend to like you..
maybe you all prefer that...ARghhh...

okay lar..tell you all wad happened: allmyfault.
that dae it was raining very heavy rite? yar..i went to rescue my bag and got my hair all messed up...then hb found it farny so pointed a finger at me and started luaghing VERY LOUDLY. so i stared at her but she kept laughing..and luahging..i didnt noe she was joking so i got quite angry lar.. then frm the nxt day i tried to ignore her and stuff.. then she said sry to me but ididnt accept cuz after she pointed a finger at me and started laughing al over again mar then i thot she very in sincere..then hor...i even told her to stop acting cute in f ront of me..

after thinking abt it rite.. actuallie in all lies in me that i cant take others joke..aiya..i will change larr..be more sensitive...
but can i dunt sae sry? hehe

2005-04-15T15:29:00.000-07:00

didnt do much todae...com was totally..erm...okay..fun...didnt listen to wad the teacher was teaching...no one did in fact...all posting crap at the 2jawdroppers's blog...hahax...then after that got side headache..didnt have el cuz i oso dunno why...phew...sian..now nobody online...
saturdae still have to go for that lit meeting...not looking towards it..hopefully todae my god sis will come and play..lol..sound so kiddy...i think my life is getting dryer and dryer this few daes...seriously theres nth happening in class or any where...everydae go to sch go home eat sleep blah..BORING.

nobody online!!!!!...damn sian...life is practically meaningless to me..haixx...nth to look forward to...nvm..forget it..

2005-04-02T20:24:00.000-08:00

this is the second time i am typing this post...the thing just suddenly disappear without saving and i have to type everything again!!!! nvm...btw im at my godsis house..came here just to post this stuff...

why? do i came here and retype everything? for my fren....

yes...theophilia..the name you often shudder at...the person you might despise

but do you noe how difficult is life for theo?? do you??? no..you dun care and you dun bother..

theo she wasnt bad..when she n hf broke up..as a third party, i clearly see that both of them had problems and wrongs..it take two hands to clap...thats why iam saying you cant put all the blame on theo! AND THE BOYS, IT DOESNT MEAN THAT YOU HAVE TO DO THE SAME THING EVERYTIME TO SHOW OW " UNITED" YOU ARE..THIS IS NOT CALLED UNITED BUT GANGSTRY.. i mean do you noe how it feel when everytime your name is being called upon or you make your appearance and all the bois/gurls starts jeering at you or wad??? i noe its fun but wat if you are theophilia???

And theo isnt s bad as you think...when she and hf broke up, she was sad and stuff, just like hf...she even thot of he haoing with hf but when she knew that hf told others things abt her, she forget the matter.. she herself, might be the worst person you think you ever seen, did not went round telling ppl bad things abt hf..i dun mean hf did but still...it was really hard on her..

OSO IF YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW DID THE SHUDDER THING WAS INVENTED OR WADEVA, ASK YOU "DEAR" CHAIRPERSON..HE'LL NOE EVERYTHING. LHJ, YOU SHUD NOE WAD I MEAN...I SUPRISE YOU ARE NOT GUILTY..

any way...i was stuck in between theo and dawn...can really try to accompany both of them at the same time..if i accompany theo dawn feel left out and its unfair for her..vice versa...i ddecicded to not to be with any of them...but theo said no...tried to pursuade me..i was rude and bad to her but she said she is willing to change herself so i wun not be loner and not be sad...touched...dawn was sad annd shocked..didt really noe wad she meant..maybe break up or wad..haixx.. i really tired liao...haix....theo is not bad at all... she rox...childish she might be sometimes...but childish could oso mean innocence and simple..simple is nice..not evil...

thnx...theo is really i gd fren i am not promoting her or wad...i am just trying to tell you all that theo isnt as bad as you think..plss

im more worthy to hate than theo..seriously.

happie

2005-03-17T09:42:00.000-08:00

Yo!..haix...sian arh...yesterdae shen asked me to help her to "check" sumthing for her online then dad sae no so i told her no...then dad thot i was being rude or sumthing and gave me a big slap..for nth...then he go and sae sorry to me...hehe...then help me xiu1 this computer ...haha..i going to change blog skin le...bye bye( to old blogskin)...haha..going to watch the sentosa video for the dunno how may times..so nice lor...zhi xin pro manx! then yesterdae went to do computer project..that silly ms chan haven even teach finish lor...then ended up me and wendy doing a pile of dunno wat crap...quite farny lar that "flush" (ms chan alwaes pronounce flash as flush.) haha..dad just called to see if i had my breakfast...maybe he is really apologic..shall forgive him....but my left cheek and jaw bone and ear still hurts..haix..heck care lar..hmm..go change blogskin liao..bye

LOTS OF LOVE!

2005-03-04T16:54:00.000-08:00

I cant stand it anymore...these ppl...why sooo care abt what ppl think abt them?????? DOES IT MATTER??????????????? aiyo dawn and others...if u see these...well, just take my advise...
Seriously, i cant understand why are you so scared that others, especially guys wud hate or dislike you???? you still got frens like me or others........... i mean who cares if the guys or other ppl hate us????? it is not our problem but theirs!!!!! LOOK, WE LIVE FOR THE SAKE OF OURSELF, NOT THEM! WE DUN LIVE FOR BEING LIKED OR HATE BY OTHERS!!!!!!! WE DUN LIVE JUST TOP MAKE OTHERS LIKE US AND MAKE WE, OURSELF, HATE OURSELF!!!! IF THEY HATE YOU, HATE THEM BACK OR DUN CARE! UNLESS YOU REALLY DID SUMTHING WRONG!!!! IF YOU HAVE DUN NTH WRONG OR IT WAS A MISUNDERSTANGING, EXPLAIN TO THEM THEN! DUN GO AROUND AFRAINDING THAT THEY WUD HATE YOU OR DISLIKE YOU FOR WADEVA STUFF YOU DO...AND DUN RESTRICT YOURSELF FROM DOING THINGS YOU WANT JUST BECAUSE OTHERS MIGHT SEE YOU NOT HAPPY!

ANOTHER POINT, I DUNT SEE WHY YOU ALL ARE SOOO AFRAID TO BE ABIT EXTRA? I MEAN TRYING FRANTICALLY TO FIT YOURSELF IN DOESNT MAKE YOU A BETTER PERSON, IT DOESNT MAKE ME LIKE YOU MORE OR WAD LOR..

im just saying the truth, if all these hurts you, im sry but i am unsensitive in my words that's a tradition. i m just trying be true AND NOT FAKE. if you dun like someone, JUST SAY IT IN FRONT OF HIS OR HER FACE! DUN ACT NICE BUT TOK BAD THINGS BEHIND HIM OR HER...IF YOU STILL WANT TO REMAIN FRENS, tell her ur feeling and how u think he or she shud make himself or herself a better person. DUN ACT NICE FOR THA SAKE THAT OTHERS WILL NOE ABT IT AND HATE YOU!!!! WADEVA.....im spilling everything todae...

he say he like jay chou......you said you like jaychou......she said she oso like jay chou....
you said she copied you.....but look, didnt you copied him if she copied you?

2005-02-15T01:55:00.000-08:00

When the clock strike midnight, the princess turned back into the old dirty cinderella, everything went back to the way it shud be before cinderella fell in love...Precious memories, crystal slipper....it was like a dream...todae was the official day i REALLY gave up on him...But the sweet memories we had shall stay....

LOTS OF LOVE!!

2005-02-12T21:40:00.000-08:00

TA MA DE....the stupid X-country...made me dehydrated and sick..then todae my family going to east coast lor..with another family..then when i reached there so sick i can even feel the world moving under moi feet man..veh dizzy..AND hot tempered..scolded my mum for dragging me along..and get scolded by mum for scolding her..Ta ma de(hb's common reply)...
so i took a cab home on my own lar... then sat in front of the cpu and rot like siao..nobody to tok to lor.. then dinner can oni eat cup noodles while my family were having SEAFOOD AND STUFF... ta ma de...somemore still got the cheek to ask if i want to take a cab there to haf dinner with them..WASTE MY MONEY ARH! ta ma de...so ate instant noodles..just after i finished eating..dad phone in to say if i want, i can go and haf Macdonalds..WAD LAR..NOW THEN SAE...TA ma de..u sponsor lar!
Haix..then just now kl called to sae on mondae got dunno wad idiotic draw Shan4 zi thingy..still have to write a poem on the shan4 zi lor! siao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ta Ma De..not in gd mood todae..scolded many ppl cuz my punching bag not online todae..if u want to noe hu is moi punching bag...theres oni one thing to sae: DUN BE KPO LAR!
TA MA DE

2005-02-04T22:24:00.000-08:00

todae was nth...everything was Fine until i went for cldds..went to tell the tcher in charge i going to drama..then finally found her but dunno when she asked if i okay with chinese calligraphy, i said i prefer drama then she said " then u can forget abt joining.."
i was soo damn shocked! i mean she was the one who asked me to chose drama or calligraphy!!! so i tried to explain to her..and my senior even help me to persuade but ended up she was like blaming me for everything...say i useless..sae cldds doesn't need me..sae even though i learn( i insissted i am willing to learn) i oso behind others cz i am sec 2..she even told me to go back to nc when he already told me that i was accepted and just nid to see which section i wan to be..then now she said she doesnt want cuz i AM USELESS..issit true? perhaps..but what can i do?? it was lucky i didnt cry in front of her but the moment she step away, i couldnt control anymore..i cried..
so went home early after helping cl to make draw props and stuff... cried on the bus..hopefully nobody saw it..
i mean anybody hu get humilliated and yuan wang by her like that wud cry..
then it started drizzling when i was walking to my flat..the water on my face dunno is rain or tears..hehe..stupid me
then went home cry on my pillow and fell asleep til 7.30 and had some drinks..didnt have the appetite to have dinner..told everything to shen, bei bei and mum..
shen was very shocked lar..then bei bei pitied me and stuff..
BUT, MUM WAS DAMN ANGRY SO WAS DAD...
haiz..they sae the tcher cheated me...stuffs and stuffs..while i jus want peace..PEACE!!!!
lucky they went out to the market to strol or wadeva..PEACE AT LAST!! cant think of anithing now...really sad...tomoro going to je library..intend to complete all hw there so i wudnt think abt wat happened todae and cry..haiz...

LOTS OF LOVE!

2005-02-02T07:51:00.000-08:00

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2005-01-24T21:35:00.000-08:00

todae is the BIG dae...i gave up on him...nth much though...cuz now then i noe he is a jerk....haiz..sad..quite harsh but im sure itll be okay...

LOTS OF LOVES

2005-01-22T13:21:00.000-08:00

sian sian sian..one word to describe all this three daes...on thurs, went to Jurong point wif shen to slack..hehe...then had dinner there..okay bah..then i went to god sis house...then chit chatted till midnight 1 sumthing...
Then on fridae, theo huifang n cheyenne went to me house to do science project, then bei came and help us..thanks! tehn after that went to jp AGAIN... to accompany bei to take neoprint..lame..ended up i am so ugly in the photo..look at the wrong thing instead of the camera..like my eyes got rpoblem like tt..then went bei's house AGAIN...well..slacked until abt 1 sth again...
then on saturdae, went for dental checkup blah blah...then rshed to Je library for chinese meeting but in the end i was the one waiting men..sian...and bei got come and pei wo ..luckily she did.. thnkz again!!then after a few hours of project..went to my house with bei..had dinner then read the bks she borrowed until midnight..just plain reading..sian..then wanted her to sleepover her DEAR mom doesn't let and insisted i go her house to sleepover..LAME..i mean we are already at my house lor.... siao lar..then bei finally aree but in the end broke her promise..then i dun feel like going to her house but her DEAR mom took it as i am angry..which did make me angry..then my mum scolded me for bein impolite!!!! wad the...just wanna tell bei sth.. i promise i will nvr sleepover at ur house frm todae on..thankyou... if you see this..pls kindly convey this msg to ur mum that i do not want to caused trouble for her...

LOTS OF LOVE

2005-01-18T21:59:00.000-08:00

todae so sian...first lesson.... Chng scolded wanlin n hb like siao just becuz they dunno answer mar..then poor thanda oso..haiz...but me lucky nvr get scolded..muahaha...wad lar, xiaoyun so jian..go n xin zhai le huo...no lar...jk...
then during chinese sew mek len made us do lame excercise... sian...haiz..and el sux!!! esp the Wong wee boon...so biase against the guys lor...i mean he very gd to girls then very impatient with the guys...such a s*x*st....i mean its my benefit to be a girl but its like he so se lor..bian tai...if u see him before then u will get wad i mean..so gentle and godd, which is all fake, to the girls...then scold the boys like siao...pity the guys...
aniwae..didnt get to see yeow again....didnt get our letter so nvr go cca AGAIN...sian..got home early and slept until five..then slack and stuff...this hansen person..go and die lar...ask him if he in scouts then he was like saying he going..then bye..then offline...like he got nth better to reply...everytime oso like tt...siao!
Oso... i really can't stand our class ppl ac liao!!!! everytime eyes widen until very big then give u a "huh?"look...then make me puke into my stomach..wah lao... a few are like tt lor..not just one man!!!! its like i feel i am living in a world of plastic excpet for theo n frank.d and chey..and another few lar..but the others...omg...so yucky n disgusting lor...almost half the class or three quarters are liddat...u can die one lor..living in a world full of fakies and unreality...OMG...how am i suppoes to endure this animore???? lucky i sitting with a theo...who is not at all ACBC.. then u noe wad...those who r ACBC rite..still Act as though they hate ppl ACBC..aiya..dunno wad to sae...i guess frm todae onwards i will not act kind to those ppl liao..tell them off and see wad happen!!! hahaha!!! but surely i die first lar...they act until too real liao..then in the end their "cute"will turn the table over and i am in the wrong liao..haiz...heck care liao..
btw norine just got her braces..kinda of nice..her lower teeth veh straight lor...mayb i oso wan..kidding lar..veh pain n ex n ma fan lor... aniwae..gtg....

LOTS OF LOVE

2005-01-17T21:40:00.000-08:00

Yay!! i FINALLY CAN UPDATE!!! there's so mch to sae..so much to commemorate..so much to criticise..so much to scold to much to praise ...aiya..where shud i start then?? wel...let's start frm my blog...
this dunno wad guailan person hor....or teo jing min or da shen..wadeva...is so damn lame..i mean thnx for saying im chio..which i am obviously not.....btw...its really lame leh...
aniwae..bac to sch...ARGH!!! i cant stand *** animore!!!! she is do damn fake man... i mean todaerite..we were at the canteen and she was being fake again...make all my goosebump come out...then make me want to puke..wich i swallowed in the end as puking around rv grounds is unacceptable...aniwae..so i was like so yuck lor...i mean she was like so damn yucky lor...haiz..dunno how to sae lar..really veh acbc times three...
Aniwae..i saw a very handsome guy..those kind tt da shen crushes on my way home when i was in a bus..saw him on the passing bus so dun get excited...he got those kind of depressed look, mature..and quite shuai..those kind da shen has alwaes being bragging abt..haha..now can make her jealous liao..yay..muahahaha...
so...im so happy....n sad...diaox..cuz of english test...wee bone sux.... AND HOR THIS sew mek len person...worse than MOLE...ms ong lar...she force us to sae we got remedial last yr when we REALLY did not...unbelieveable...she sux lar..siao..aniwae..gtg...byeeeeee

Lots Of LOVE!!!

2004-11-27T11:15:00.000-08:00

woohooo...finally can type liao! miss me?? hehehe...me so bu yao lian=B.Y.L= cute! Muhahaha..me siao alreadie lar..hmm..first of alll...

THe CHalet was a TOTAL SUCCESS!!!! MUax..to u guys....Luv ya....i reallie missed it u noe....terribly....haiz..looking forward to nxt yr's de chalet...heheh...haiz..so long nvr blog dunno wad to sae liao
But first..need to thnk my mei mei for lending me her computer...mei mei ur computer rox..haha..u rox oso lar...aniwae....
yesterdae went for tuition..siao..shen ask me to look out for shuai ge...diaox..then it was like there was oni FIVE...five miserable students lor...and the worse thing is....I was the oni girl...erm...and all the guys are sooo SHORT...at least shorter then me..and the teacher is so damn bo liao lo..tok tok tok..tok rubbish arh..haiz..but the gd thing is that after the tuition i went to mei's house to sleepover and ONLINE!!! yayay! then finally can update my bloggie liao...hmm...listening to the frens forever song..quite nice..mei mei jie shao de...soo happie...hopefully tomolo can go jelly's bdae..then give him the nicey nicey present personally wor...hehehe..me siao liao..btw..dunno when can update again..so muz sae a lot of things mar..rite? erm..........................nth to sae leh....wish that when i m not around u all will miss me okie! gd..then..then...wish everybody happie happie holidae n merrie christmass......hm..that's all...gd byeeeeeeeeeee.....MUAX!

Lots Of Luv

sad

2004-11-04T13:29:00.000-08:00

haiz...dun feel like going to chalet all of a sudden..cuz the person i hate is going..im not tellingu hu is it..but not mavis lar..a guy..cuz..erm..nth..just have a feeling of not goingto the chalet leh..mayb becuz the others( for example mavis) might be wearign Very fashionable clothes and i am wearing t-shirt n shorts and its kinda erm...u noe...especially i am not rich but all other are..then its just kinda pressurising..dunno..but im not gonna waste my money..hmm..must enjoy myself to the fullest...dun care bout them lar...to sae the truth..1J not united at all but its just that others(including me) doesnt want to admitted it..haiz..nth...realise that life is really boring so this few weeks im not tell you wat i do the whole cuz..u noe..eat sleep blah...so..maybe i'll post more abt my thoughts and stuffs like that..so..im gonna be my true self here..im not act nice nice type..so if u see me erm bit..stubborn or wad..sry...haiz..so.......dun really like going chalet...oso becuz got a feeling that it is gonna turn out very badly..but maybe i am wrong..(most of the time i am wrong so dunt worry.haha)..really sian...listening to this sad sad song again..thinking of him..but oso dun like him animore...strange me..feel like having crush..haha..siao..Very Bored leh!!!
not looking forward tot he chalet...but nvm lar..pay money liao then must go mar..cannot waste money...haiz..BBQ..last time heard my fren who attended our pri sch class gathering that the BBQ was horrifying lo..nvm..jia you guys...hope that mavis wunt lend us as in she wunt be the leader taking charge of the games of sumthing..cuz most probably she wud get fed up with me n hb..then maybe she'll be angry and fan pi qi..haiz..dunno lar..then dunno wad will happen liao..but usually it will happen it that way lor..cuz last time got work with her mar..then it was like..when u give suggestion..she will probably sae hmm..mayb not like tt..then of cuz u will be a bit erk hem..so u will keep quiet rite..then she will ask u to give suggestions..then history will repeat itself liao..haiz...sry to mavis but i am just saying out my thots..i noe i am straight forward but this is my blog ..so i suppose i can write wadever i want rite?haiz..sian sian lar...later then post summore..byee

Lots Of Luvx

2004-11-03T20:17:00.000-08:00

haiz..sad...better dun sae or i willl think of him again..nth..nth to sae todae..bb..hope i wunt cry..i thot i gave up on him liao..perhaps i didnt...sad....byeeeeee..heart-ache

Lots Of Luvx...

2004-11-03T11:09:00.000-08:00

muahaha..me so clever.."accidentally" made a trap and that fake hb fell into it u noe..or at least i think so..so..u wanna noe hu has been hogging my taggie to frame hb n scold me??? it's..nope..cant sae first..must discuss with real hb first..muahaha...hmm...haiz..this fake hb..long jiu see her act kind bui kind liao..then somemore act close with you but bui close with you..haiz..but at least caught her wad..mmm...mz celebrate..y real hb still not online?? nvm..later call her lorx..byeeee

no crush

2004-11-02T20:39:00.000-08:00

hmm..just feeling bored..haiz..ask you a question...in your teenage yrs (13 to...) have you ever had a time without a crush..maybe..if u have..that's wat i am experiencing now..haiz..its kinda feel weird..dunno...maybe u have nvr felt that way b4 but it does feel weird and perhaps if u have someone to crush one..it would be much more interesting..haix...dunno leh..toking rubbish again...nvm..when u dun have a crush..there is one gd thing bout it..and tha't is u dunt have to worry if he likes you anot or if he likes another gurl or wad..hmm..maybe i shud look on the bright side..anwae..if you have the same problrm as me..it's ok...

Lotz Of Luvx

hmm

2004-11-02T18:45:00.000-08:00

hmm..todae went to get my bks for nxt year..met theophilia at the canteen..and i was late for bout few minutes cuz i missed the bus..haiz..the books were sooo HEAVY lo...aniwae after that..theo n I went to Jurong east library but found it to be closed..so we went to the skating first to kill time..then saw that there was not much ppl there and had an urge to go n skate..haiz..but no money lo..after borrowing bks frm the library..me n theo went the Mcdonalds b4 going home...
haiz..finally can rest liao..wah lau..the bks damn HEAVY leh..carry until got bit of headache..hahax..diaox..then after a while went out with mei mei to return n borrow bks cuz my library card full already and the bks at home finished already..hmm...borrowed alot of nice nice bks..all thanks to theo who introduced them to me...muax..
Aniwae..after that mei mei and i went to JP to "play"...sianz...then mei mei was asking me if Jec or Jp got ani shuai ge anot..and i was like..pls lor..how would i noe..besides we go there oso not see shuai ge one mar...double diaox..aniwae..we walked around and bought Mamee noodles cuz long time nvr eat liao..yum yum..for just $1.05...hahax..and shared the cost (so cheap hor..)...and after a while..i realised my feet were sore and tired..for less than 2 hours of shopping..hmmm...maybe must train up liao..triple diaox..hahax..haiz..so sian lor..just now help mum wash the rice for dinner or shud i sae playing with the rice...cuz i was pratically was them one byb one until mum was like..eh..how come so long still haven finish washing..hahax...so long nvr do housework liao..and mum said that this holidays must do..haiz..nvm..train for nxt yr's home econ...muahaha...hmm..nth to sae liao..byeee..

Lotz Of Luvx

blah

2004-11-01T22:45:00.000-08:00

Writing an appeal letter to yeow jing to change NCC..abd btw, my fren said that my blog entries are too long n smelly..so therefore ii shud make it short n sweet...and so..that's all for todae...bb..gd nite n wish me gd luck to appeal of change of CCA...

Lots Of Luvs...Muax

2004-10-30T11:06:00.000-07:00

Dedicated to "Someone u noe" & Fake "hb"

well..i really dunno wats going on this fews days but now i realised that these two people i've named are making a nonsense in my tagboard..if any of u ( to fake hb and someone u noe) see my msg..please kindly stop tagging your idiotic nonsensical lame n stupid msg on my taggie..thank you..

To: Someone u noe
wat are u toking about??? hu r u toking to???? i mean look here...u just suddenly popped out n scolded something about big-mouth n about ur "fran" and said " i warn u...u dare to do anything bad to my frans again and i can ensure that u will suffer...u will live to regret...better watch out ok..." like as though someone own you a life or wad..if you really think that somebody is being bad to your that "fran" why dunt you just put ur name down n scold????? why must you hide your identity..unless you r afraid to get yourself into trouble for saying the wrongs n maybe you are afraid that others will hate you for scolding..tell you wat..if you noe that you are right and the person you are scolding is wrong..then why must you still hide your identity..nobody will hate someone hu is right n reprimanding someone hu is wrong...therefore..we can all see that clearly..you are just making a fool of yourself and trying to be stupid...also..if you want to scold somebody..could you kindly pls name that person out and oso state some examples why that person makes you mad at him or her...cuz if you anihow scold..you are only making yourself look stupid...making yourself look like an idiot...if you have come to the wrong blog...then pls kindly leave as you can see that you are very extra..if you are not..you are also very extra here..cuz my blog does not welcome ani one hu is this stupid and making themselves a fool...as you can see that the other except fake hb are all kind and sweet...and they does not hide their identity like a rat..u noe wat i mean..only if you are clever enough...

To: fake "hb"
you are nth better than the someone u noe...or even worse i shud sae..framing..a crime that shud not be forgived..luckily i have some trust to hb..if not..maybe the real hb and i might not be frenz animore...and luckily the real hb is kind enough to explain to me when i accused her...sry to the real hb...also..if you wanna scold me for hating ncc..go on...i dunt mind...but you, obviously does not want me to noe hu u r and hate you or tell others bout you, decided to use another person's name so that you can both frame someone and scold a person without the person knowing its not the real hb at the same time..but through this, you are actuallie stupid enough to find the wrong person to impost and thus its kind of easy to let others noe that it was not the real hb at all..if you were to scold or insult me in your own name..at least others will only feel that you are a bit of rash or too straight forward or wateva..but now..if we were to find out hu you r( most probably we would)..then you are going to be hated and left out by mani people..cuz nobody wud want to be fren with someone hu actually betrayed her own fren or classmate or shud i sae platoon mate?? i dunt noe but i think u r really in trouble now..cuz nobody can forgive someone hu impost as someone else and try to frame that person..if you were to show up urself..we might just forgive you a bit..but if we were the one hu find out about you..then i dunt noe wat to sae...well..that's all...just take care...

2004-10-29T13:52:00.000-07:00

hahax..just came home..guess where i went for the whole night?? My mei mei's house larx..then chat chatn chat until i fall alseep on her bed oso dunno..this morning 5 sth woke up then realise im still in her house..still sleeping in her bed in the same position..hahax..so..yesterdae after dinner went to her house to chat n play..hahax..so fun..then went online at the same time again..lame but fun..then we were chatting with the tkh wnem he blocked my mei mei cuz he dunno her..diaox...then after that JJ suddenly oopened a window and say hi..weirdo..i thot he alwaes bu shuang me...hmm..but nvm lor..so learnt that he forgot to bring his report bk home..wah lau..luckily is in the school..but if someone took it then die lor..but not as unlucky as me larx...i almost lost it by leaving on the library shelf..but fortunately ran back to find it..hahax..then suddenly he offline...and i had this weird feeling that it might be his sis i am chating with..hmm..nvm..might not be..aniwae..so went offline again and we sang karaoke..so fun..sang until i cough like siao again..haiyo..so went to her romm and chat chatn chat..then tok bout bois..haiz..then dunno wad happened then when i woke up..it was already 5 sumthing in the morning liao..hahax..fall asleep while chating..then mum sadi she thot i was acting asleep..but i dunt even have a slight memory of my dad calling me to go home lorx..hahax..luckily todae no NC coz nobody call me mar..if not sure die lor..slept until 11..hahax..then had Mcdonalds for luch without having breakfast cuz too late liao..
just now sufan called me to go to her house for BBQ..yummie..every year oso got one..dunno if she is calling shen to come along a not..haiz..holidae liao..not happie lor...dunno y..but very excited cuz got chalet..oh yar..yesterdae when i told my mum my marks..she nvr scold u noe!! i mean the report bk one..then todae wne thome dad oni said that i muz work hard lor..and i was like usy typing in this blog n he nvr scold oso!! yay!! hate NCC cuz mondae still need to go for beach cleaning..sux!!! so stupid lor...mmm...but nvm..at least tuesday wunt have activity cuz og GCE O Level..hahax...aniwae yesterdae went to mei house still haven bath yet..now muz go n bath liao..if not i will stink one..
BTw..how come i cannot sign in to msn..they sae its under maintainence so cannot sign in..dunno its just for me or for everyone lor..aniwae..gtg n bath liaox!!!
Lot of Love!!!

last day of sch

2004-10-29T03:12:00.000-07:00

hahax..todae is the last dae of sch..but dunno why not happie at all...and in the morning i took my cough syrup b4 breakfast so it caused to me be very drowsy lor...then during the SC investiture keep on falling asleep..luckily norine n doro woke me up b4 the teacher nearby sees me...hahax..thnx!!! after that got a 45 min break..of cuz i went back to class to sleep lar...at first oni got a few bois so still quite quiet..budden..slowly more n more peeps started coming up then the class became very noisy..hahax..but i still can sleep...then got of lot of peepz asked if i okay..so caring..thnx pals..me alrite!! haiz..still got somemore assembly..wad prize giving..Wan Lin top student you noe!!! did our class proud...wanlin rox!!! after that rot in class until dismissal time..sianx... still have to go to the JE library to return bks...then somemore one person..but luckily met hb, emily, wendy n zx on the bus so went to JEC together...but me got cough so cannot eat fast food so men emil n hb went to the nearby hawker center to eat..yum..fish porridge...then went to the library to chat chat..tok frm manners to guys..frm guys to gurls...then played truth or dare..hahax..dared hb to call li rui and tell him "i luv you "...hahaz..but in the end she just kept saying wendy's name to the receiver..lame...then chat for dunno how long then i called my mei mei to come and join us larx..so she agreed lor...then after a while rite..she called to sae she reached liao but still nvr appear so i went to JEC to find her lorx...then went back that time i was running so fast until my shoe lace got stuck in the escalator..n tripped n fall..ouch..so pain..hahax...
so came up n saw mei mei leaving with hb they all..without my bag..guo fen,,dunt even bother to bring my bag along..wad if someone steal it??!! aiyo..all so impractical..but nvm larx..hahax
soon they all went home n left me and my mei...so we went to JEc then went to the skating rink..n saw ppl i noe..hahax..then someone called "halo" to me n i nvr reply cuz got B.O man there...hahax..sry to the hueva hu said hello...so watched the ppl skate..wah..saw tomato there..still walking like got shoulder n leg problem...haiyo..dunno tomolo got nc anot..but todae found out frm hb that a lot of ncc ppl act nice...n sae bad things bout me..hmp...si mad..hate them..Go N Die larx!!! hate them!!!
btw..later going to mei mei's house to play..hahax..so happie..now listening to the music " you 'll be in my heart"...then thot of him..hahax...totally give up on him liao..but he'll be in my heart forever as a mere memory of my first crush in Secondary sch..haiz...heart will ache but im sure will heal oso..hahax..aniwae to dae oso heard frm emil n hb n wendy n zx that a gurl whom i thot is very nice is actually very fake..so hurt..cuz i at first think she is very gd person..haiz..disappointing lorx..still cant face it..haiz...so sad..but nvm..alwaez look at the bright side of life...mm..shud smile more often lorx...must be like last time in primary sch..alwaes laughing..hahax..nowadays kept sulking over NCC and other stuffs..haiz..SMILEZ!!! Luv Is Near All Of Us !!

2004-10-28T17:13:00.000-07:00

Yay!!! tomolo last day of sch!!!! not really that happie though..cuz will be bored to death at home..but me sure mei mei will come ma house one..then can play...haiz..todae during history sir asked us to seperate ourselves into groups of three or four..then dawn nvr come sho i dun dare to go n join theo's group in case dawn sae i betray her or sumthing..so i waited for others to chose finish and see if got anione without a group so three of us can form a group..but hu noes it turned out that emily and hb and dawn had already formed a group..so i left out lar..but oso cannot blame dawn lar...but feel very sad lor..i hao3 xin1 wait sho we could be in the same group then emily n hb go n put her in their group..then they do easy topic n i do the difficult one..the one that others dun want..just becuz i wanted to be in the same group with dawn so she wud be put with someone she doesnt like or someone she not familiar..haiz...that time quite angry lar..but then now okay liao..still bit mad though..
then todae got e-lit dramatisation...1J rox man!!!!! i think our class the best one lor..though oother classes oso very gd..well done!!! then the sec 2's romeo n juliet..erm..at first cannot understand wat they toking about..then slowly the story starts to take shape..quite interesting..esp the last one..the modern romeo n juliet..hahax..n oso not to forget bout jiateng..haha..purple hair..dunno its meant to be hair or scarf..haha..but nvm..mm..tomolo take back report bk..sian..then got dunno wad investiture...arh..but luckily 11 go home..yippee!!! i luv holidaes!!! but will miss 1J..haha...n mr chng oso..cant believe we have been together for onr whole year..haiz..time really flies...still remeber the day i first step into this sch..then see unfamiliar faces everywhere...haiz...wad tokin me..siao liao..haha..then on the bus home saw overcooked sai..so smelly...somemore stand so close to me..then when i need to get off she didnt even bugde..too fat already lar..haha...hmm...then todae went to reaturn mei mei's bokks..hahaz...then people thought i borrow one..i were got sho much time to find the books..but my mei mei got lar...hahax..all the books she borrow oso very nice..not like me..so unlucky one..hahax..sianx...not much ppl online though...dun feel lyk toking to them either..just have a strong feeling to vent my anger on the keyboard lor...y angry? cuz of the history project maybe..angry that i am too stupid liao..sad...haiz..nth to sae n vent liao..its all my own fault wad..so no one to blame lar..hahax..okie..bb then..

2004-10-27T22:54:00.000-07:00

haiz..yeterdae got art fest then sat there until i fall asleep..but dunno y the teacher sae very interesting..diaox...then i was expecting our group to present lor..but they never..so disappointing one..but they got set up booth for us to visit...hahax..very nice leh..then somemore won the second price...U guys rox man!!!! Jia You!! 1J rox lor...then cough until very bad so nvr went for NCC..then got one senior came over to me and asked ÿou pon NC again arh.." i was like..what tokin you???since when did i pon NC? i got cough oso cannot...give parents letter oso cannot...must have MC...U think i that rich arh..go n see the doctor which wud probably cost me $20..then just to get an MC...pls lor seniors..USE YOUR BRAINS..Okay??!!!!! i mean if i haven recover leh??? thenyou mean i have to go to the doctor again and spent $20 just to GET U a piece of MC???? You want MC so much issit??? Go n die lar...then can have a lot of MC one..siao...
oh yar..where was i...then todae went to the holding sch..wah lau..its sooo nice lor..nice until look like factory lor...then got bars..like jail..then the wooden floor n grass and sai made it look like a kampong(dawn sae one)...then sho smelly n got mosquitos..well i dunt really mind the mosquitos but its DEFINTELY VERY DIRTY..even for me(who is already very dirty)..then went bak to RV n suddenly fell that the olding is atually very nice( not being sarca)...as in compared to the holding sch...haiz..then went home that time forgot to brings keys so went to mei's house..luckily she at home...thnx mei mei!! U rox man!!! so eat instant noodles n fries...then went online..not much ppl..hahax...then listen to songs in the kara-ok ..or wadeva...got a lot of songs lor..actually the one in my house got more songs..muahaha..show off...then went home lor...todae theo told zx bout the ABC ghost story and firghtened zx until she cried..wah lau..theo you very scary leh..hahax..then told it to dayanna she oso scream..hahax.me so bad...mm..now see * not so wad leh..then oso *** ...hahax..dawn..now you wud noe wad i toking about liao..muahaha..yay...aniwae..sho late liao..gotta got to sleep laio..gd nite n sweet dreams!!

i hate NCC

2004-10-26T16:30:00.000-07:00

hey...to all NCC Peepz..i mean people...since when did i pon NCC?????? I had COUGH OKAY!!!!!!!! U IDIOTS!!!!! yar..to u all cough oso can go wad.....but DO U NOE HOW SERIOUS IT HAS BEEN??? IF U ASK ANIBODY HU SITS NEAR ME OR HUANG BEI OR AH THEO...I M SURE THEY NOE HOW BAD MY COUGH IS....BUT U DUNT NOE...AND U DUNT CARE...IF I FALL OUT OR COUGH UNTIL SIAO THEN U WUD PROBABLY SAE ..." OH...SHE NEVER TELL US..." OR "ITS HER FAULT TO COME CUZ SHE SHUDNT IF SHE NOE SHE GOT COUGH..SHE SHUD NOT HAVE COME WAD..NOT OUR FAULT..." WADEVA SHIT EXCUSES U ALL CAN GIVE...SO WAD IF I HATE NCC....UR PROBLEM??????? TELL YOU WAD...I HATE ALL THE NCC PEOPLE EVERYSINGLE ONE INCLUDING GUYS...SIRS n MAMS...ALL EVERYTIME JIA JIA ACT NICE...SMILE OSO SMILE UNTIL SO FAKE...EXCEPT THEOPHILIA N HUANG BEI...cuz they r my frenz wad...OSO...I HATE TAN KIM CHUAN N THAT OLD HAG YEOW...WADEVA HU PUT ME HERE!!!!!!!!! GO N DIE OR ROT...Y PUT ME IN SUCH A IDIOTIC PLACE???? JUST TO MAKE SUR THE NCC GALS WILL GET GOLD UNIT..N SACRIFICE US?????? ............... I HATE NCCCCCCCCC... CCs....U ALL MADE MY LIFE A MISERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skate skit

2004-10-25T21:08:00.000-07:00

wah..ouch..todae went skating just came back..at first went there got 12 ppl going..include of emily, zhi xin, huang bei, dawn, xintong, mavis, dayanna, me, kahn, jj...ew....saw the chinese high ppl skating..sho stupid..haf to wait until 12 noon then can go in...go die lar...sho wait lor...then dunno why jj went bbq..heck care..then call jeromy come but he didnt ..so left kah han oni boy..then he oni boy so went home i think...left 10..so cham...then aubrey n sherilyn haf to pay seperately..but luckily they sae they going to do project so must leave early..wah lau..at first step in there dunno y dun dare to move...i think the shoes too small liao...then cannot move..very pain...hate that uncle who gave me the shoes...go die lar..then the others all went skating..the ones who noe teach the dunno ones..nobody teach me..sob..sob..so left me at the railings..all dun care bout me liao..then haf to cross the middle..wah feet pain..then i stuck there lor..but luckily zhi xin came to my rescue..Zhi Xin, U ROck Gal!!! so she guided me to the center and we.walked...then slowly she taught me how to skate..yay..zx so nice..she got blisters still help me..hahax..then regain my confidence n started skating..skated until i oso got blister..tong oso got..then i ant even walk..argh...i hate that uncle hu gave me the pair of shoes..stupit!!! then went to rest..then dawn ask me to go n skate with her but went there cant even move..have to be dragged by huang bei..really pain lor...then i never fall for once u noe...the others all got..then zhi xin need to go so her group went home lor..then left us (emily, huangbei, dawn n me)...then went to eat cup noodles..damn expensive de lor...but really hungry mar..the tom yum chicken sux..then never finish..next time never buy the tom yum fried chicken..not nice one..then feet better liao...but went into the rink n cannot move again..saw cheng han..dayanna was quite happie...then he was waiting for yirong..then later saw J.R..wah hb veh excited leh..dunno wats sho gd bout him...he look sho weird lor..like got back problem one..then i cannot move and dragged by emily ..hahax..me so stupit..aniwae..saw B.O man outside so smelly!!!! hahax...then feet really sore lor..so i went back..then soon they oso went back..yay..then bought a drink n saw cheng han n yirong at near 334..wah...then went home feet still pain..ouch....haiz..tomolo still got NCC..go die lar...hate NCC....y got such stupit CCA???? Haiz...NCC SUX!!!!!!!

ha

2004-10-25T20:33:00.000-07:00

haha...yesterdae went shopping at orchard rd with my my mei mei n her mum n bro...then of cuz her mum n my mum shop together lar...then we go n see those nice nice but extra expensive braclets ( the things there all expensive until like siao one lar)...then we really extra lor..all those ppl there is either aunties or teenagers(very rare) with their mama( carrying shopping bags for their mom)....diaox....then somemore my mum ask me to go n see if got ani skirts or wadeva i like ...pls lor...how mani times must i sae i dunt like shopping??!!! argh....but luckily got my mei mei to accompany me...haha..then we ended up looking at toys n buying sweets( quite nice u noe especially the lime flavour one, oni got two lor)....hahax..then saw mum at the toy department with my bro..still lookin for clothes...aiyo...so we went over n look after the liittle brothers so our mums could shop..for so long...then finally mum dunno how she did it...bought me a skirt quite okay lar..but mind u..nvr wear short sleeve with blue n white stripes with the skirt..cuz it will make you suc*...aniwae..sho later went to eat macdonald n went home..hahaz..so tired..then read magazine until fall asleep...diaox..
then todae i woke up quite early lar..then online n saw hb...hahaz...then chat..then dawn sms me sae she no tshirt..then finally want to wear short sleeve..but she found out that she no glooves...erm..then ask hb( online) to lend but hb sae she lend frm zx one...diaox...sho asked dawn to lend frm zx ..dunno have a not...later dawn reply then see....okay..sho later meet at JEC mcdonald icecream booth at 10 am...hahax..still early..mmm...cannot go so early in case like last time..in fact most of the time..or shud i sae all of the times( poor english)...im alwaes early n there r ppl who r alwaes late...im so excited..really like skating..though i dunno lar..hahax...hmm.. gotta go...later i cum back then i update hor..

another dae

2004-10-24T12:57:00.000-07:00

haiz...yesterdae cough subsided abit then shen called me to go to west mall with leican and yi le..all frm rgs one..aiyo..me so extra..but went anwae cuz stay at home can oni watch tv or go online..sianz..sho met them at watson's cuz they late..haiyo...then shen bought so mani useless thing lor..then went to a lot of gift shops and the haapy frens dunno wad thing..all the things all so expensive lor...they r cheating ppl money leh..then after that no mood to shop..then went to value and want to buy chocolate but shen sae the chocolate surely put very long liao and must be mouldy mouldy one..erm..okay..sho nvr buy but she treat me to sweets..hahaz..btw if u r still wondering y me n shen together..cuz she apologize and i muz give face mar..diaox..aniwae..then went to the food court and mi and shen shared two super large fish balls and a carrot cake which cost $2..hahaz..then going to go home liao so the lei can and yi le went to dunno where to see things then shen go to guardian..i wen to buy fries lor..hahaz..the whole dae oni bought fishballs and fries..and carrot cake..hahax..me dunt find shopping very agreeable actuallie..especially in shops that sells too expensive things..even though not my money lar..but still heartache mar..then went back together..then i called home and dad sae they later going to mei mei's house to have dinner so i went straight to her house lo..hahax..then we chat until dinner time..after dinner we went downstairs to buy strings so i can make frenship band mar..then afterthat we went to the mac nearby adn eat mcflurry..nice sia..thoughircon spoilt..but luckily outside very cold sho we sat outside and ate..then went back and i make a lot of chains for my mei mei and didis..hahax..sho cute..

lalala

2004-10-23T23:04:00.000-07:00

Cough...arh..so cham..gotta reallie horrible cough lor..haiz..cough until my throat going to burst liao..haiyo...so sianz..one person at home...then nvr go for NCC becuz of the cough lar..which doesnt seem to be any better than going to NCC...but really sianz lor..then yesterdae that stupit idiot Chin zhihui really wad lor...go n write wendy worht oni dunno how mani cents ..its like so wad lor..but lucily someone go n wipe it off lar...good job to that person..really appreciate it lor..though i m not wendy cuz the other guys there just watch n nvr go n scold zhi hui or do sth bout it..hmm..*cough* ...argh...later still have to go n da3 bao1 food..dun feel lyk going..haiz..no choice lor..so sian now..not mani ppl online now..sian..arh..gonna be bored to death liao..

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2004-10-22T19:38:00.000-07:00

Haiz..todae slacko dae..hahaz..aniwae..sho morning just watch two sian movies lor..real sian..cuz the sec 4s having graduation dae mar..but luckily mry class went back to class after a while..haha..clever move..sho then later kept slacking lor..then saw ah-theo sitting alone so went over to chat with her and found out that she n huifang n cheyenne got some misunderstanding..but manage to get huifang n cheyenne to apologise lar..happy three frens again...feel happy for them oso..hahax...then todae s1 maths mr chng veh nice and sae very touching words lor..haha..reallie wish he can teach s in sec 2..hahaz..then went to find mrs yao jing to change CCA but saw her chating with Keith teo that idiotic idiot..haiz..sho went home lor....so cham...
Then yesterdae oso nth much..but got art fest lar..mm...got a lot of ppl sing songs that's all..aniwae..Prince Charming is sho shuai!!!!then got the dance with was very farny and erk-hem..better dun sae animore in case dawn go n xiang3 y y again...hahax...sho that's all lo..then during recess or wad some of them were playing murderer..kinda lame..but quite ok lar..haiz..just made up my mind to forget about him...mmm..wish me gd luck!! diaox...

haha...dunno wad to sae...

2004-10-18T20:54:00.000-07:00

todae is just another ordinary dae..yay...almost read finish the whole book of Shi Jie Shi Di liaox...those ppl who saw me reading it shud noe lar..almost spent the whole dae reading it lor..sho sweet..wish i oso that lucky lor..hahax...wait long long arh...almost finish reading it liao...then after sch ah-mei came over and brought along some more nice nice books...she borrow de bks all very nice lo...hahaz...then go home that time dawn told me she go n read my entire blog..plz lor..i post so much leh...cant believe she read till the end...and then somemore belivev wad i wrote bout the * person thingy...cannot anihow put stars meh...she somemore go and count them and try to match it with the names of the guys in our class..Dawn...sho blur..hahaz..but very sad..cuz tomolo got NCC...my whole body still sore lor...aniwaez..todae go to new classroom..feel very odd...cuz very big and then dun have the mood to study liao..hahaz...very sianz...haiz..still daydreaming bout the Shi Jie Shi Di bk..sho nice lor....Btw...to dawn.the * person ish soo cute and i bet in a thousand years you wud nvr guess hu the * is...muahahaha...lame...

mixed feelings again....

2004-10-17T21:38:00.000-07:00

hahax..todae sho farn..cuz yesterdae mei mei came and sleepover mar..then 10 sumthing then wake up..muahahaha...then went online until 11.30 and went to play badminton..but too hot liao so sat around and chit chat..then finally decided to go Jp afterwards...hahax...so bout 2 sumthing went to Jp then went to toys r us...so old liao still go..haha...then mei mei suddenly remember she needs to buy present for her frend...so went to Value shop lo..found very cute keychain but dunno her frens starsign so dunno how to buy..but i bought a handphone pounch..not much..juz plain white..preparing to sew my name on it though..so we went to the Gift-a-name shop lar...then found her frens star sign but couldnt buy anithing there cuz all either toooo expensive or too stupid..but i ought sumthing again..hahax..i alwaes got things to buy one..aiya..oni bought a chain for my handphone lo..cuz the key really very cute marz...then summore so cheap..$1.90 oni lo...then went to shop next door..erm dunno the name..and ah mei bought this pair of reallie sweet earings..cost her $2.80...Bu4 Hua2 Shuan4...mmm....then went to Value shop again..but instead..we didi not bought the keychain but a pouch and a sor of picture frame (very cute lorz) for her fren..i oso got buy a pouch cuz its sho cheap n cute!!! hmm...then went home ...altogether spent oni $4.90(plus the fishballs)...yay..i broke record...then reach home still got time so went to Mcdonald to eat Mcflurry...then use coupons..haha..so sheng3 qian2..buts that's gd wad.....then went home..wah lau...muscle ache..not really good at shopping..hmm...but oso partly becuz of NCC lo...pump us like siao..then summore we never get pump for so long liao lor...hate NCC!!!!! then dunno why now so sad..maybe weekend finish liao muz go n see MOLE's face bah...and my EOY....score sho bad for everything......feel like dying ...haiz..dun say le..bb...

...happy n sad...

2004-10-17T13:14:00.000-07:00

haha... yesterdae went to west coast with my mei mei n play until 10 something..so farn..my mei saw a lot of shuai ge which i think ish not at all shuai lo..He is still the shuaiest!!!! then i scratched my knee but very small lar..but very pain cuz very near to the scratches made during NCC....they siao lor!!!!! pump us as though we r robots or wad...then scold for no reason..one of the second-sergeants even lied..then i got scolded becuz i help my fren to answere something..cuz the sir asking her wad..he was looking at her lo..then she never sae"yes sir" then i prompted to her and unluckily got heard by that SIr..then he sae i sae so soft..HE WASNT EVEN ASKING ME!!!! STupit.....im gonna qiut NCC someday n i dunt care wad they will sae lor...
but..lets not tok bout the unhappy things lar..my mei came my house and sleepover...hahahax...sho farn ..chat until 1 something..nearly 2..not as late as last time..last time 3 something lo...we li hai hor....then accidentally let out a secret though nothing much to her....hahax..then chat about sho mani things..girls are like that...chat until we all fell asleep lo..hahax....yawn....

Sian Sian day

2004-10-12T19:41:00.000-07:00

haiz..todae no skul....so sian..now then realise how sian it can be without hw and sch and exams at the same time...somemore have to stay at home to watch my brother who is sick..haiz...feel so sad todae...really wish someone can talk to me...I'm so heart-brokened....those who knew wat happened will noe why... really regret it now...i hate to regret..but i have to..now he is ******** with someone much nicer and prettier than me...but so wad if i never made such a decision..we might not be together wad...he doesn't even like me..hahax..me think too much lar..now cannot tok bout this kind of things..but really very sad lo...haiz...but i have a good news..the book my mei mei and I are working on is gonne be ready..Yay...i 've decided to complete it todae..hahax..since i have nothing to do..everyburdie go out to play..all..except me...*sob*..*sob*...Haiz..sometimes i really think that when you like somebody..you and that person usually no fate...or maybe that person doesnt like you at all...but life is like that..i guess we all have to face it sometime in our life...i thought it over already...if it is not yours..it would never be yours, no matter how hard you tried...haiz..let fate take its course then...but still very sad and heart-broken..wish him to be happy everyday..hmm..nope..wish everyone or anyone who read this to be happy forever..SMILEZ....

happie..^.^

2004-10-11T19:21:00.000-07:00

ai...todae the listening damn lame lo..so easy..then after recess me n theo they all went to the library to kill time..hahax...then found this very interesting book called <<>> ....then later went to the damn bo liao assemly lo..hahax...later mr chris sang n a poem to us again...so nice..then later went home with xintong..hahax..saw yanwen...hopefully tomolo no NCC...so then after that i went to my mEi's house and went online to delete the tagboard..budden her cpu very faulty leh..hahax..nvm..then we went my house and saw xintong waiting downstairs for me..she was waiting for me to go home so she can come my house..wow...aniwaez..so mum at home lor..haiz..sho we stayed in my room and chatted for three hours..hahax..tok a lot of crap...then we went ah-mei's house coz tong want to go online but my house cannot go cos dad dun let...then xintong went online while me and mei mei sat there and tok crap..hahax..guess wat! ah-mei gave me this veh cute badge and some cutez cutez animal erasers...WAH..soo cutex!! hahax..me act cute boi cute...ahahax..then just now begged mum to let ah-mei to come my house..dunno can a not..haiz..hahax...pray that tomolo no NCC!!! hahax..

sian dayie

2004-10-10T13:30:00.000-07:00

haiz..yesterdae woke up veh late lo...then mum force me to clean up my room..hahax..coz very untidy due to exams...so spent about half an hour doing so..hahax...then go online see mani ppl but nobody to tok to....*sign*...coz all busy or playing games...or maybe i not very familiar...so sit there and rot lo...then go cjb cannot sign in..so stupit...then just surf the net until bout two sumthing then mum n dad ask me to go out with them to met a few frens from china...oso go n have dinner with them lar...wah..i was so sian lo..sit the the car and rot...then reach orchard road then see mani qing2 lu3..haha..then reach this extra nice the five star hotel where his frens live..i thot we eating there one...budden they say jus go there n see their frens first...so they went to the fren's room lar..then mani ppl..n i sat there n rot again..then somemore they smoke in the room lor..so sian..have to keep going to the toilet for fresh air..then finally i cannot stand it animore so ask my brother to accompany me to walk around and we went to the swimming pool..mmm..veh nice..hahax..then soon they all meet with two ang-mo..to have dinner..then haf to go to the singapore river there..the Jumbo there to eat seafood...then after dinner...we go walking round the river..very nice n romantic lor...too bad me no boyfren..hahax...then go home and went online until veh late ...this morning real sian...woke up late again and went online..got bit of sore eyes..finish writing in my ah-mei's autograph book liao..wrote alot of crap manx...then want to go to edulearn the thing spoilt..haiz..have a feeling that it's gonna be a long and bo liao day..reallie hope my mei will come my house...hahax

Whew...Exams R Over!!!!

2004-10-08T22:20:00.000-07:00

yay!! to dae the last exam liao..so happie!!!! Luv ya guys! Aniwaez..so todae after exams all the people going shopping and hanging otu at various shopping malls lo..hahax..so relaxed now..then i cannot go to Jp with dawn and can neither go library with ah-theo they all coz i ask cass to go out with me mar..so i called her hp but nobody..then call her house she still not back..ARGH... then of cos i dun wan to wait mer..i ask moi ah-mei to go with me first lor...wah lau..Je sooo mani ppl lor...
then i called cass again then the ah-ma very fed up so i told her to tell cass to come straight to JE lor...then me and ah mei went to jurong library coz still early mar..then guess wad..on the way met ..er..JJ..scard me to death lor..coz at first cannot see him then suddenly realise it was himm..wah lau...then JE got no bks to read so we went to the skating rink and dian ge...erm..dunno how to use so dian the wrong song..so disgusting lo..that song..hahax... then we decided to go library again..dunno why..then on the way met LHJ..so stupid..i think he juz came out of the theatre..then i was like at first nvr recognise him then i was so shocked lo...haiz..then me n mx called cass again but she still not there!!!!!! so we gave up n went to haf McDonalds and saw JJ buying food there..Urgh..so unlucky lo..then somemore his face chou chou one..then later we went to watch whitechicks..nice man!!! and we go and dian ge again..this time i dian Qing Tian..too bad xintong not here...hahx..and there was this chio bu in the skating rink lo..she so pro and so chio...haiz..envy her...LOL
After that hor..i called cass again and she said she forgot to bring her hp...er...so she came here and went back again..haiz...then me and ah mei wnet home lar..she come my house so i can help her make blog..hahax..i like the skin leh...i want it!! hahax...then she went to haf dinner with my family and we all went her house after that..hahax..then i help her make autograph bk..then mummy saw it and sae very nice and suggest i shud go and learn drawing this holidae..YAY!!! then i went home..hahx..sooo fun to dae..Exams r OVER..YIPPEE!!!

I failed history!!!!!

2004-10-05T13:13:00.000-07:00

haiz..so sian todae...nvr study finish history lor..then hor the paper one chao siao lor..i write until moi hand broken leh....wah lau..then paper two even more cham..at least paper one i noe wad i writing..but hor..paper two i dunno wad i crapping and then still can crap until a page and a half lor..die liao...then to dae emily and dawn go and eat lunch then i cannot go coz yesterdae ask mum help me cook extra so todae can eat..if i go n eat with them hor..sure get scolded one..then hor one the way home hor..on the 334..wah lau..there's this big malay hong kah sec student come n sit in front of me lor..So smelly lor...he smelled just like last time my dad overcooked the beef and then put too much soya sauce liao..does he sound more like food than human?? hahax..but luckily he got off lar..hahax..now so sad...i kept going back to shen's blog and look at wad she said yesterdae lor..its so hurting..but i still kept looking at it...me siao...haiz..so sad..she is like acting innocent lor..then make me look like geek..hmp..so mad at her..budden more sad rather than angry..haiz..tomolo got maths..then hor..yesterdae she sent me sms sae she want to he hao..but look at wat she said on her blog abd tagboard..well she erased the evidence liao..clever hor..hate her.............. i thot she dun care if i he hao with her anot?? JIA JIA!!!!i hate this kinda person..then todae complain to dawn bout it then she oso veh shocked..haiz...reallie hurt lor..gtg..bb..I HATE MATHS OSO!!! tomolo surely fail one lar...bb..

Sad....Mad...

2004-10-03T17:43:00.000-07:00

dunno wad to sae..but guys..i cant trust moi fren animore..and somomore she go n sa e thingsthat hurt me so much..really need someone to comfort me..thnx xintong...but where's everybody when i need them??? and now that shen had been liddat to me..she is even telling others moi secrets..the key to my trust for her..and she is telling lies to moi others frens and making them as though i am the bad one!!! deeply hurt..dunno how to live animore..really think that shen is very guo fen and dangerous..cant believe i actualli told my secret to her for more than 2 years!!! feel lyk dying..then sciemce exam sure fail lar..eng oso nvr check....i going to die liao..need to revise for history tomolo..gotta go! bye.... i guess i shudnt haf trust shen that much...

can i cry??

2004-09-28T21:26:00.000-07:00

i am so sad..i mean i thought the hj go n spread the stupit rumor..budden it did not turn out as i thought cas..aiya..then i yi shi de chong dong go and scold hj and tkh..so sad...reallie wish someone could comfort me...reallie wish i can die rite now...if i reallie commit suide..can everyone forgive me....thnx..

tomolo got exam!!

2004-09-26T16:46:00.000-07:00

so sad...greatly hurt by shen's action..yet shen denied she betrayed me....now dun feel lyk studying animore..how???...wish i could die u noe........sian arh....my heart reallie hurt a lot after shen betrayed me....but wat can i do ?? she said she didn't which was not true....then..haiz..she lied to me....i felt so lost...now even moi best fren has betrayed me...hu can i put moi trust on....at least i still have cassandra...haiz...but...juz feel very disappointed..
I mean i put all my trust on her and she still dare to betray me...well..i was so angry that i actuallie sae i want to stop being her fren..that maybe harsh but i am reallie very hurt and mad.....the more i sae...the madder i get..so dun tok about it...ARGH!!! but i can tink of nth but this!!!Help!! wad shud i do????????
I cant get out of this shadow.....some one help...kiddin...but moi heart hurt reallie very much..i..a bit breathless now...kinda dizzy feeling..maybe too sad..but how can she do such a thing with the thought that she is in the right side...I mean betraying someone issit a gd deed or sth rite...and she often sae "i am ur bestfren..how can i betray u"..and now..argh.....reallie mad with her..actuallie i am more on the heart-broken side than on the angry side... gtg .....later than post somemore...byeeeee..

Yay!

2004-09-26T16:14:00.000-07:00

finally..i can write in my blog liao....haiz..had a quarrel with shen cos she sae out a lot of secrets about moi...not so angry now but...reallie wan tot forgive...budden she dun wan to admit that it was her fault!